‘Doc’ Category

  1. Scenes from Boston

    December 13, 2007 :: 6:26 pm

    Doc and I went to Boston for a conference (Web Design World, which was really a fantastic conference) and to visit Bob for a few days. Boston is a beautiful city, especially in winter. It’s been really cold and wet and snowy here, and I love it.

    The churches in Boston are so beautiful that they almost make me want to actually GO to church!

    We took a self portrait on the street.

    This is the Christian Science Church.

    The Boston Public Library is one of the most beautiful buildings I have ever seen. This is part of the main entrance hall and stairs.

    The library had an exhibit of intricately detailed dioramas.

    I love Johnny Cupcakes!! Especially the cupcake-and-crossbones logo.

    Me and Doc next to a subway station.

    I love wearing my scarf and coat.

    Not the Old North Church, but the Old South Church.

    A big pile of icy snow.

    Today we ate breakfast at a place down the street from Bob, then hopped on the subway to go to the Aquarium and the Science Museum. By the time we started off to the train station, the snow was coming down pretty heavily.

    Bob and I at the Aquarium. It had closed 2 hours before we got there, due to heavy snow.

    This is the snowstorm that seemed to be shutting down the whole city.


  2. 8 Years of Hitched Bliss!

    November 28, 2007 :: 8:32 pm

    Yesterday Doc and I celebrated our 8-year anniversary! Yay, us!!! It really hasn’t felt like 8 years (well, 12 if you count the time we were dating), and I know that’s a Very Good Thing. We’ve made a point over the last few months of spending more time together in the evenings, and on evenings when we do our own things in our respective studios, I feel lonely.

    He is truly the light of my life, and my best friend. He is so funny and intelligent and sexy and cute and caring and generous and honest and faithful and loyal and entertaining. I am so glad that we managed to cross paths in life.

    Sometimes it just hits me how much a simple thing like one simple decision can be so fragile, so fleeting, so life-changing. If either of us had made any number of other decisions prior to the moment that we met, we might never have met or married at all.

    What if he hadn’t been able to come to that party we had where he discovered my CD collection and realized that we had the same semi-obscure interests? What if I’d gotten more involved with the person I was casually seeing at the time that we met? What if he had already grown distant from Tommy when Tommy and Ginger were dating? What if he and I had decided to date a few years earlier when we were first introduced, when neither of us were ready and it wouldn’t have worked out?

    It’s weird to try to tally up all the things that had to go absolutely right to lead us to this point. I think this is where some people like to imagine that God, or whichever higher power they ascribe to, had a hand in things. I don’t think so, personally. This world is so complex that crazy things like this happen all the time, and the times when things work out either really well or really badly is when we start to question the events that led up to that point.

    Anyway, back to the anniversary. We did not give each other big gifts, as is our tradition, but I did get him a few bars of fancy soap that he likes, and he got me some rosemary seedlings (since I managed to kill the two large plants he got me last Christmas), because, he says, it reminds him of when we got married. How sweet is that??!

    He was working onsite at a client’s all day yesterday, and when he came home we spent some quality time together (wink wink) and went out to stuff ourselves at Texas de Brazil (and if you’re planning on eating at a churrascarria and having sex in the same evening—two ways of getting stuffed, har-de-har-har—I’d highly recommend having sex FIRST).

    I do love that place but lord have mercy, is it ever expensive. We had a buy one/get one free coupon (they send those out to their mailing list for birthdays and anniversaries), and that’s about the only way that I’d be comfortable eating there. At $45 prix fixe per person, you’re looking at $100+, more if you have anything to drink besides water.

    They offer a dessert menu, but I have no idea how anyone could possibly fit dessert in after partaking of the orgy of meat and salad. The 5-inch-tall slice of cheesecake with an inch of fudge on the bottom and caramel on top looked pretty appealing, even so.

    And I think I mentioned this last time I posted about Texas de Brazil, but I swear I could eat my weight in goat cheese. Just give me their rice, black beans, and goat cheese, and I’m a happy girl.


  3. Hey baby!

    October 8, 2007 :: 8:28 pm

    Trivia at the Trinity again last night. Doc and Brittney and Chris and I had our own team. We didn’t do too badly, all told… 52 out of 73 points. Rich’s team ended with 59, and I was imagining they’d sweep the floor with us.

    I didn’t realize that there were modest cash prizes for first through fourth places! I’m hoping that my brother Bob, when he’s in town over Thanksgiving, will join us. He can be our secret weapon. They even asked a math question last night! (None of us got it… something about reflex angles. I’m pretty sure I’ve never even heard of that.)

    Here’s something that will show you just how completely late to the party I am (and always have been): I was being hit on, fairly aggressively, by a drunk loud co-worker of Rich’s, and I was completely oblivious to it. I’m sure that everyone else at the table was watching this train wreck happening and wondering why I didn’t shut this guy down. Doc, especially, was mighty uncomfortable, but I honestly had no idea that he was focusing on me. I thought he was just being kind of a loud jerk in general, and trying to include me in the general conversation (which included the line that I’ve heard a million times before, and that always pisses me off… “Why aren’t you talking? You should talk more! You’re too quiet!” or, conversely, the sarcastically delivered “Katy, shut up! Quit hogging the conversation!” Kiss. My. Ass.)

    And for my part, I was making a conscious attempt to NOT stay in my shell around people I don’t know, like I usually do, and was trying to make friendly conversation with everyone, including Mr. Hit Man. I guess Mr. Hit Man saw this as an open invitation to increase the level of obnoxiousness/hitting-on-ness. It didn’t occur to me that he wouldn’t realize that Doc and I were together. Eventually it dawned on me what was going on, and I informed him that I was happily married for eight years, thank you very much, and Doc finally was able to elbow his way past this dickhole, put his arm around me, and said “SHE’S MARRIED TO ME.”

    So, I’m a total idiot. I felt really embarrassed. But then again, I’ve never EVER clued in as to when people were interested in me. I wish I’d been a little quicker on the uptake and had time to figure out a great way to verbally crush this jerk like he deserved.


  4. The weekend

    October 1, 2007 :: 12:40 pm

    I think that Doc’s classic cluster cycle has returned. Twice daily bad cluster attacks.

    I’m convinced that Depakote he’s taking isn’t doing jack shit. It may even be making it worse. It’s definitely making the headaches different, and with these things, sometimes the devil you know is better than the devil you don’t.

    Friday (his birthday) was simply awful in terms of pain. Saturday was better; he had a short attack in the afternoon but only hovered around a 1 or 1.5 for the rest of the day. This was good because Kathryn threw him a surprise party Saturday night at her house (I know, how sweet!!), so I’m glad he was able to go and participate and not be in too much pain. I had a great deal of fun. I haven’t laughed that hard in a long time. The dinner was awesome too, courtesy of Brett’s fantastic culinary skills: homemade burgers, homemade fries and onion rings, roasted pepper salad, and ice cream with blueberry-pomegranete sauce. Humor occasionally regressed to the 5th grade level, which I think is totally necessary for adults sometimes!!

    Yesterday he woke up with annoying level 1 or 1.5 pain, and tried sleeping it off, despite this never having worked before. He proved, once and for all, that sleeping does not fix the pain, and it usually in fact makes it worse. He finally got up around 3 p.m. Later in the evening we went to Trinity Hall to play trivia again like last Sunday. I really like having a regularly scheduled activity with friends. I think that next week Doc and I and Kathryn and hopefully Brittney and Chris, and perhaps some other people (?) will form our own team. We did kind of kick ass in the “computers” category, getting 10 out of 10 answers correct.


  5. Doc’s not had a good week

    September 29, 2007 :: 10:42 am

    His post from yesterday…

    Nice Birthday so far…

    The pain is out of control today…

    I started waking up around 5 am for short periods as the waves of pain reached a level I couldn’t sleep through (1-2) I would then pass out and go back to the nightmares I was having. During one of these short periods of being awake I made note that the pain seemed to be switching sides although I don’t know if I was cognitive enough to judge if it was a “wrong side cluster” or migraine-like in nature.

    When I got up I had a throbbing pain in the cluster area that was well into the 1-2 level. I tried to relax and ride it out but around 9:15 it started to ramp up and became a full on attack that had rapid waves of 6-7 and a baseline of about a 5. This is a bit unusual, most of my clusters don’t seem to “throb” as bad as this one did.

    So here is the real sucky part… when it “broke” it never fully went away, it only dropped to around a 2 with waves approaching 3 for like the last 2 hours.

    I am hoping for some relief soon…

    4:45pm
    The level 1-2 cluster pain has been pretty much constant since the last time I posted. Now on top of that I feel like I have a pretty intense “migraine” layered with it, it I feel it mostly on the cluster side but its more spread out and often throbs on the other side as well. Light sensitivity, feeling queasy, wanting to lie down and rest…all the things associated with migraines… along with the pin point cluster pain that makes you want to move and such.

    its very tiring.

    2:05am
    The pain continued the rest of the evening. eventually the cluster “layer” faded mostly leaving the migraine “layer” (still on the wrong side). The migraine became a bit worse and I also started getting sharp stabbing pains in the back of my head that would make me wince and flinch. I still feel pretty crappy. But I guess I am going to try yo go to bed anyway.

    This has been a simply horrible day for the most part. Thank god for my wife, she gave me presents, got me a tasty diner, rubbed my head and generally made me have a little joy amidst the pain.


  6. Photoshop World Las Vegas

    September 12, 2007 :: 8:44 am

    Doc and I spent a couple of days last week in Las Vegas for the Photoshop World conference. The conference was really good and I learned a lot about a lot of things, and came home with “The Phone Book,” the name everyone was calling the 2-1/2-inch-thick conference workbook. That thing is amazing; it’s got all the instructors’ notes and presentations from all the sessions, so if you weren’t able to attend a class you still have the materials from it.

    Despite both of us being sick in various ways (see last post), we still managed to have fun. Neither of us really wanted to “Vegas it up” this time, so we didn’t feel pressured to go to expensive shows or drink or gamble. We did a lot of walking around, taking photos. On our last day, I gave Doc $3 to put into a slot machine and 2 minutes later he cashed out with $43. Not bad! We bought a nice lunch.

    A few interesting observations: In Las Vegas, it’s sometimes hard to tell the real whores from the regular tourists that are just dressed that way. Everything in Las Vegas is about double the cost that it would be almost anywhere else. “But it’s a dry heat” is bullshit. Adequately padded shoes may not look fashionable, but they’re crucial.

    I estimate that I may have walked close to 5 miles each day of the conference (in flat sandals…. owwwww my feet). I think it was about 1/2 mile between our hotel room and the convention center, and this was in the same freaking hotel. All the restaurants except for one in the Land of Foodcourtia in the convention center were closed. The one that was open had only greasy fried food, hot dogs, and $9.50 hamburgers. We ate there only once, and then trekked 1-1/2 miles over to the Luxor hotel for lunch on the other days.

    This is a good representation of what it feels like in the casinos. Imagine sucking in a lungful of stale smoky air to complete the picture.
    Vegas 2007

    The sunset was quite lovely. These colors are fairly accurate.
    Vegas 2007

    The castle at cheesy Excalibur.
    Vegas 2007

    Mandalay Bay had a really nice “beach” area with a wave pool filled with showoffy 17 year old boys, and a couple of regular pools filled with fat women of questionable sexuality on inner tubes. I spent a little time soaking up the sun, covered in sunscreen of course, reading and making vitamin D.
    Vegas 2007

    Paris was lovely, as usual, with the painted ceiling and cobblestone “streets.” As a side note, Paris and Aladdin used to be connected…. but now Aladdin is the Planet Hollywood Hotel. They’re taking down all the beautiful Middle Eastern decor and replacing it with flat “glam” Hollywood looking stuff. No more sandstone arches, painted ceiling, or fake thunderstorms.
    Vegas 2007

    We paused for a self portrait on a bench in Planet Hollywood. 1 a.m., our feet hurt and we were exhausted from walking.
    Vegas 2007

    A fake crystal chandelier.
    Vegas 2007


  7. Coming Back Up from Rock Bottom!!

    August 15, 2007 :: 9:28 am

    After Doc’s visit to the emergency room three weeks ago, his migraine has gradually been getting less intense, one little baby step at a time. Actually it’s been more like 3 steps forward, one step back. Monday night he still had his buddy Mr. Migraine hanging out with him, and then their asshole next door neighbor Mr. Cluster came by for a drop-in visit, and surely overstayed his welcome, partying all night with Mr. Migraine and refusing to go home.

    Tuesday afternoon, Doc went to see a neurologist, Dr. Maureen Watts of the Dallas Headache Association. She works in the same clinic as Dr. Stuart Black, who is supposed to be one of the world’s leading specialists in headaches. He couldn’t get in to see Dr. Black, of course, as he seems to be booked up through the summer of 2008.

    From what Doc told me about his visit, Dr. Watts seemed to actually take an interest in helping him feel better long-term, rather than acting dismissive and throwing drugs at him. He’s had so many bad experiences with doctors who don’t seem interested in getting to the bottom of what is causing his many and varied problems, and who don’t seem to want to deal with him because he’s not an “easy” patient.

    Doc wrote up several pages of history, detailing his health issues, that he gave to Dr. Watts. She read it while he sat there, and then asked him specific questions about things in his report. (I think that doctors love it when you come to them with a well-thought-out detailed list like that.)

    She said that from what he described, he definitely has both cluster headaches and migraine headaches (which is rare, but it can happen), and although she’s not a sleep specialist, probably some form of narcolepsy as well.

    And this was really the most important thing, I think, to me at least: She believed him. She understands what he is going through. She doesn’t think he’s crazy or making it up. She is on his side, a partner in helping him get well again.

    He now has some anti-seizure medication (I believe it’s called Depakote) to try. Theoretically it can break the headache cycle, although will be more effective on clusters than the migraines. If it works, he’ll be on it daily for the rest of his life. And that kind of sucks, but if that’s the trade off for not getting headaches, so be it.

    Next steps include another visit with Dr. Becker, the sleep doctor, some bloodwork, possibly an MRI, and some additional follow up visits to check progress.

    I generally hate to feel optimistic about this kind of thing, because invariably that eventually leads to disappointment… but I can’t help it. I have hope that this doctor is going to be the one that’s finally going to help pull him out of his pain.


  8. I’m feeling a bit better

    July 29, 2007 :: 8:35 pm

    Everyone has been so nice to me for the past few days (not that you aren’t usually :) I really appreciate it. I realize that this is going to sound completely cheeseball, but it means so much to me that you guys have been so concerned about Doc (and me) and have been so quick to help us out in so many ways. I know that’s what friends do: we get each other through the tough times, providing an ear, a shoulder and a kleenex when we can’t figure out how to cope with the shit that life has thrown at us. And sometimes, when we haven’t seen each other in way too long, we pick up like it was only yesterday. I just hope that I can return the favor someday.

    I’ve felt rather wiped out, mentally and physically… I guess it was a cumulative effect, culminating on Wednesday with the emergency room visit and all. I’m definitely feeling better now than I was last week. Stopping my Project 365 was a surprisingly huge relief, and once I beat it into my own thick head that it was OK to just go out to eat if I don’t feel like cooking, I suddenly felt like cooking again. Go figure.

    My boss let me take the day off on Thursday, Kathryn came over that evening to hang out, and Brett showed up with a cubic meter of Italian food. I saw Debbie and Rachel, neither of whom I’ve seen in ages, on Saturday at Ginger’s wedding shower, then on Saturday night Brittney, Yvonne and Nate came over for margaritas and dinner. I had a great time playing with Zoe, and she smiled and laughed a lot (Yvonne said it was real smiling, not just gas :)

    Enough about me. Doc has been up and down since I last wrote. The hydrocodone prescription from the E.R. has run out, but I think those pills were causing him not to be able to sleep (even moreso than usual). And also, did you know that those pills cost thirteen cents each? Crazy. I was expecting multiple dozens of dollars for the 5-pill prescription, as seems to be our fate with the medications that we need, and it was all of 65 cents. Embarrassingly enough, I did not have exact change and had to break a $20. The pharmacist looked like she wanted to roll her eyes at me, and I don’t blame her. Who doesn’t have 65 cents at the bottom of their purse?! (Me, apparently).

    Anyway, Saturday was a pretty good day: Doc felt better than he had in a long time. Today was not so good. His head hurt pretty bad and he’s been falling asleep randomly all day. About 9 p.m. he said that he felt awake for the first time today.

    I’m hoping that he’ll at least start having more good days than bad ones, if he can’t be pain free.


  9. My amazing husband.

    July 25, 2007 :: 9:57 pm

    You know what my dear sweet wonderful husband told me today? Even in the midst of one of his worst days of pain, the day we ended up in the emergency room, his plan for today was to go out and buy me flowers to thank me for being there for him.

    How amazingly sweet is that? He’s truly one of a kind. I am the luckiest person in the world.


  10. Things I’m letting go.

    :: 9:48 pm

    Been thinking a lot about what to let go, to cut down on my stress. I need to be as healthy as I can to support Doc while he’s having a rough go of it, and to make it through all the extra work I have committed to.

    So I’ve decided to put one thing on hiatus, and stopping worrying so much about a second thing.

    As of 2 days ago, Project 365 is on officially on summer vacation. Hopefully only for a few weeks, but eliminating the stress of “oh fuck, it’s almost time to go to bed and I still haven’t taken a photo” is going to make a difference. It’s not like I’m doing it for anyone except myself, anyway, and I need to learn how not to feel guilty about failing to achieve personal goals, so this is a good start.

    And the thing I’m going to quit worrying about is cooking vs. eating out. The stupid spaghetti incident from last night made me realize that not wanting to cook, and getting takeout instead, is not the end of the world. I routinely worry about what to pack for my breakfast and lunch for work, and about cooking when I get home at night, WAY more than most people probably think I do. Planning all that is so prevalent in my mind that it’s probably adding more to my stress levels than I ever realized. So if I’m tired, I’m going to go out and just not worry about it.

    For a while.

    Until my August and September freelance hell months are over.

    Until Doc starts feeling better.


  11. Back from the E.R.

    :: 9:41 pm

    Too exhausted to write much, but the CAT scan came back clear. No tumors.

    Hydrocodone definitely dulls his pain but he’s totally stoned at the same time, so it’s not much of a solution.

    Good news is, going to the ER got him some sort of emergency referral to Dr. Black, the headache neurologist who’s “booked up” until 2008. Going to call him tomorrow and see when he can see Doc.

    Had good experiences at the hospital. Doc felt like this time (his 4th time in the ER for headaches, the other 3 were before I met him) people were taking him seriously and not just saying “you have a headache, take some tylenol” and sending him home. Doctors seemed concerned, wanted CAT scan done. Several different people asked him who his neurologist was and seemed surprised that he didn’t have one, so rather than a “do you want to see a neurologist about your problem?” attitude, it was more like “um, sir, someone in your condition NEEDS to be seeing a neurologist.” That was definitely a positive experience for him. The nurse who gave Doc the pain shot and who checked us out at the end was so nice and so concerned about him, she seemed very sincere and caring. I didn’t get her name. When we initially got to the hospital and had to park a few blocks from the ER in the only parking we could find, a hospital worker pulled alongside us in his truck and offered us a ride up to the ER, which we took. VERY good hospital experiences this time.

    Of course, we haven’t yet gotten the bill.


  12. At E.R.

    :: 5:17 pm

    At E.R. Getting CAT scan. More later.