‘My Boring Life’ Category

  1. now i make clicky noises when i type

    August 5, 2005 :: 8:00 pm

    two weeks ago, i stopped biting my fingernails. i didn’t really have a reason or motivation. my left thumbnail had gotten unusually long — past the edge of my fingertip. and something just clicked in my brain that said, well, that’s it. here’s where things change.

    here’s why quitting the biting habit hasn’t been a priority:

    • i’ve been a biter ever since i can remember. it doesn’t embarrass me.
    • my nails are really thin and brittle, and so they split and peel very easily. if you push on the end, they just bend like they’re made of paper.
    • longer nails are harder to keep neat and can get in the way, especially if you do a lot of work with your hands.
    • sitting around filing and polishing does not sound like a lot of fun, or even something that i would like to consider necessary maintenance.

    i’m finding that i’m having difficulty operating my new nails. once or twice i’ve accidentally clawed myself due to lack of control. they’re splitting and peeling as usual, but i’m trying to be gentle on them.

    i don’t know if i’ve quit for good or if it’s a temporary respite. currently my thumb and first two fingers of each hand are past the fingertip. the pinkies are nearing the edge, as is the ring finger right hand. ring finger left hand still has a ways to go.

    at any rate, it’s an interesting experiment.


  2. ’cause nobody loves me, it’s true…

    July 18, 2005 :: 3:06 pm

    ok not really.

    but some days i get antsy when i don’t get any email.

    NOBODY LOVES ME!


  3. screw you, target!

    July 11, 2005 :: 8:55 pm

    never in my life did i think that i would be turned down for a credit card.

    i could fill a dumpster with the number of credit card offers i get in the mail each week, and the one time i actually try to apply for a card, they say no?

    today i tried to get myself a target visa card, to separate my personal purchases from the purchases doc and i make jointly. i was turned down, and offered instead a target store charge card, which i have no use for.

    i pulled my credit reports; they’re spotless. i have only my mortgage and one credit card on them. my debt consists almost entirely of my mortgage, and the debt that i do carry on my credit card is extremely low. up until recently, i’ve paid my entire balance every month without fail. i have no negative credit history whatsoever.

    i can’t figure this out, for the life of me. my only theory is that perhaps i’m TOO GOOD… in otherwords. because of my history of faithful payments and paying off my balances, they wouldn’t make any money off of me in finance charges or late fees.

    what do you think? any other theories?


  4. lifeblog

    July 10, 2005 :: 10:38 pm

    a cell phone acts like your auxiliary brain. it’s almost permanently attached to either your hand or your hip or your purse, and sometimes you’ve even given up your land line completely in favor of it. so much of your life is conducted via cellphone. it could be a virtual diary, if only you could somehow record and extract all that information, all those voicemails and call histories and emails and instant messages and photos.

    seems that nokia has figured out a way to do that. they’ve introduced software for their camera phones (which only is compatible with windoze peecee’s, booooooo hisssssss) called lifeblog, which basically records all correspondence and events that flow through your cellphone and then translate it into a timeline of your life, including all those IMs, emails, voicemails, calendar events, and photos.

    think about it. wouldn’t it make sense to have a device that you already constantly feed information into, do the work for you?

    i guess my question now is, how robust is this software? can you manually add to it? i conduct SOME of my life via cellphone, but not nearly enough to make an interesting diary. i’d like to be able to add to it by hand.

    discover magazine wrote a really interesting article about lifeblog and the advent of photoblogging — how digital cameras are paving the way to passive diary-keeping — for their august 2005 issue (which i’d link to but it’s not online yet).

    “It takes time to jot down a paragraph or two describing your day at the office, but it takes only a few seconds to snap a few images. And because visual memory is so powerfully associative, when you see these images 10 or 20 years from now, it’s likely that a whole host of other memories from that day will come rushing back. Perhaps not as many memories as you would have if you dutifully wrote out diary entries Samuel Pepys-style each night, but who has that kind of time anymore?” 

    all of that brings up something i might have mentioned previously. even if you don’t think that you keep a diary, you probably do: your e-mail archive.

    i’ve been using e-mail since 1994, obviously much more in recent years than at the beginning. i still have almost all my e-mail correspondence since 1996. i can go back and read it and it tells me so much about my life that i would have otherwise forgotten. and sometimes the mundane stuff is the most interesting. it tells me how my views and interests have changed; how i’ve become a better writer; it helps me remember when important things in my life happened.

    i’m thinking about figuring out a way to publish my diary (just for myself; i don’t labor under the illusion that it would be interesting to anyone but me). it would probably be chronological, with a volume for each calendar year. it would include all my email correspondence, as well as any digital photos, photos from my phone, instant messages, and my blog, of course. somehow it would all have to be integrated in a way that was chronological and made sense. each volume would be HUGE, too!

    i’ve been trying to figure out the point of doing a project that enormous. it’s not like i’d be doing it for anyone but myself. but that does remind me of something doc said when he encouraged me to start a blog three years ago: imagine how interesting it would be to read the diary of someone from 600 years ago. perhaps someone 600 years from now would find my diary just as interesting.

    so what’s the point? i’m not sure, other than some narcissistic sense of self-fulfillment. i’d end up with a shelf full of books about my life. here’s something that just occurred to me: i’m convinced that humans are deeply and subconsciously driven to leave a part of themselves for future generations — it’s how we’re wired. most people meet that need by having children. but maybe some of us find a way to meet that need by leaving a record of our lives and experiences for others to read, enjoy, and learn from. so in lieu of having kids, i’m writing a diary? hmmm. sounds weird but makes sense, in a way.


  5. ugh, more daylight??

    April 26, 2005 :: 4:29 pm

    “While lawmakers may not agree on drilling in an Alaska wildlife refuge or raising automobile fuel economy, they came together Thursday – without a word of complaint – to extend daylight-saving time by two months.

    The House, in approving a massive energy bill that covers more than 1,000 pages, would extend daylight saving to the first Sunday in March and to the last Sunday in November. It now starts in early April and ends in late October. “

    yuck. i know you’ll think i sound crazy by saying this, but i’m not particularly a fan of daylight. all the magic happens after the sun goes down. i’m actually awake then, and more creative and energetic. my normal sleep cycle is to fall asleep about four hours before sunup, and sleep another four hours after that. so this is going to put me even farther off my normal circadian rhythm.

    one of the state representatives pushing the bill said “We all just feel sunnier after we set the clocks ahead.” speak for yourself!


  6. highlight wrangler

    April 21, 2005 :: 9:54 pm

    so check it out, i decided, for the second time in my life, to try to color my own hair plus do highlights at the same time. i now understand why professionals get big bucks to do this kind of work. they’re paid to wrangle caustic chemicals and tinfoil so you don’t have to. and if you think it’s tough to do it on so-called “normal” hair, imagine trying to do it on one metric ton of curly poodle hair that won’t stand still or lie flat on the tinfoil for you.

    in case you weren’t aware of this amazing but true fact, my hair magnetically repels tinfoil via its natural magical properties (i’m 1/4 elf on my mother’s side) and so that was hard to control what with my hair flinging the tinfoil to the four winds every time i wasn’t looking. not to mention, with all the red dye stains on the ceiling and walls from tinfoil splatters, it’ll take me weeks of scrubbing for it to come out and i’m sure the next owners of this house, when they use archaeological tools to carefully remove the different layers of paint, will think that someone was murdered in the bathroom and suddenly legends will be born about me.


  7. a strange month, april

    April 11, 2005 :: 8:05 pm

    this is turning out to be a very stressful and unusual month. in addition to kathryn’s wedding and all the preparations involved therein, and then with doc finding out about his layoff a couple of weeks ago, i found out late last week that i’m getting a sizeable raise. which is, of course, fantastic and all, but it’s a big change, coming on top of other big changes we’re dealing with. yikes. lots to think about.


  8. woe is me…

    March 15, 2005 :: 10:25 pm

    feeling very sad tonight. i sort of realized again today that i don’t really have a best friend. (doc notwithstanding, of course — he’s my very best friend in the world, but it’s different from having a girl best friend.)

    kathryn was my best friend for years and years, but… it’s a long story, and she’s best friends with someone else now. truth be told, that just makes me feel heartbroken every time i think about it. i got brave and told her that in an email a few months ago, and she didn’t say much in return… i don’t know what i was expecting. so great, i succeeded in both making her uncomfortable AND sounding weird and desperate.

    i realized a couple of months ago that brittney is really the woman that i’m closest to — other than doc, she’s the first person i think of to talk to when i have good news, bad news, need advice, want to go out and do something, etc. however, she talks interchangeably about amy and debbie being her best friends, so it’s not really “best friends” if it’s not reciprocated. how sad is that? my best friend is someone who doesn’t think of me the same way. of course, i can’t just tell her “you’re my best friend but it’s OK if i’m not yours”… so i don’t say anything. (it’s ok, she doesn’t read my blog.)

    sometimes i wonder if my group of friends is still friends with me only because i’ve been part of the group for so long. am i one of those people that they’d rather drop, but no one wants to be the one to say it?

    i know i should just get over myself already and quit whining about stupid high school crap like “best friends.” feeling sorry for myself doesn’t solve anything — and who wants to be friends with a whiner anyway?


  9. evidence that the world is completely insane

    December 5, 2004 :: 10:13 pm

    • a woman in plano killed her 11-month-old baby by cutting off her arms
    • people like paris hilton exist
    • you can purchase, as a gift or for your own viewing pleasure, a large sculpture of an American bald eagle that not only is lit by fiber optics, but also flaps its wings… who wouldn’t display that proudly on their coffee table?
    • mail-in rebates

    Reasons why the world may not, in fact, be completely insane:

    • Spamalot
    • With the addition of cat #4 (Loki, Tiny Black Kitten of Mischief and Fire), Zen Cat Balance has been achieved in the household
    • U2 is making great music again
    • you can find anything on eBay… even a replacement glass percolator knob for your 1950s coffee maker

  10. Random stuff…

    July 19, 2004 :: 8:59 pm

    A list of random stuff that’s been going on:

    • The little TV in the bedroom quit working last night.
    • I’ve been having very vivid interesting dreams that I can’t remember for more than 30 minutes in the morning.
    • We replaced our old patio furniture with something similar, but new and cushioned.
    • We have LOTS of stuff to sell on eBay.
    • Doc got an extremely well-deserved raise at work.
    • “I, Robot” was actually a pretty good movie, even though it did not stick to the storyline of the Asimov book.
    • Will Smith is damn cute.
    • I like “Mr. Brightside” by The Killers.
    • Leslie, Brittney, and I all bought the new album by The Killers last week, all completely unbeknownst to each other. We’d never even talked about the band before. Leslie and I hardly ever buy new music (because most of it just plain sucks).
    • Saturday night about midnight it was REALLY good patio weather. It cooled off a lot, I don’t know why. Unfortunately, I was too tired to find a good patio.
    • I need to cancel Picture Mail on my phone. $15/month for a service I don’t use.
    • I got my Creamy posters from the DSVC today. I will now send one to Gary Baseman for an autograph. I think I shall also enclose a small original painting of my own, for him to have, or to paint on and send back (hehe, is that crafty of me?), or do whatever with.
    • And a great picture: me and Leslie by the hotel pool on South Padre Island, 2003. Ponder the fabulousness!!

     


  11. i just KNOW i’m going to win the lottery!

    June 24, 2004 :: 8:50 pm

    one a/c compressor and valve: $1100

    one temperature sensor and water pump: $550

    new brakes and cylinders: $450

    not having a new car payment: priceless

    driving a rented toyota echo that smells like someone peed in the air conditioning system: $15 discount

    discovering that the toyota echo is the crappiest piece of shit car i’ve ever driven: no big surprise

    maxxing out the credit card: it’s the american way.


  12. winter cleaning

    January 11, 2004 :: 11:35 pm

    I am updating my website, and drastically overhauling the design. I’m using kind of the same basic design as I use on this page. I really like the way this page is set up and the way it works in a technical sense. I am very proud of the CSS I wrote for it. The rest of my website will soon be fully CSS enabled. Like you care, I know!

    Anyway, many things will change. I hope to have it complete this week, then on to the next project, which is either going to be A) finishing that painting on the easel in the garage, B) working on a DVD project (maybe Christmas, maybe a slideshow, maybe a music video), or C) starting writing on the next book. I need to do “C,” but probably will opt for A initially, then B later on.

    I’m having trouble typing tonight because I paper-cut my left index finger tip, or rather, I foil-cut it trying to get the foil lid off a tub of blue cheese crumbles. I’m typo-ing every other word.

    Last night I was having a series of weird dreams with very vivid and drastic imagery. I think that John and Melanie Lanning were in it (we spent the evening with them last night). It involved large semi trucks on fire, burning tires, tornadoes, cats, basements, houses I suddenly didn’t recognize, and lots of other strange things that unnerved me.

    I’ve been trying to ignore the news for the past few days, so I don’t know what stupid things that our leaders have done or what crazy ways the media is reporting it (or not). Tomorrow, it’s back to the routine.